Facing those Challenges without Him

Father, in dictionary is defined as a male parent or Individual progenitor of human offspring. The adjective "paternal" refers to a father and comparatively to "maternal" for a mother. But for me there is a deeper meaning for that word. You cannot tell a person/man, a father, when he cannot do the tasks and responsibilities of a father. But what if you did not see your father since you were born? How will you accept that? Will you blame him or will you think that he did not want to leave you and your family? Will you look for another love of other father?

          My father, Deogrias Abril, is the youngest among his four siblings. According to my mother, he died when I was only two months old. The cause of his death was heart attack. Every time we celebrate the father’s day, there are so many questions that are formulating in my mind. “Do you like to have another father, will I blame him for leaving us, and will I blame him for what’s happening with us right now?” Now, at my age, I knew all the answers to those questions. I cannot blame him for his leaving us because he also did not like to do so. I also realized that I do not like to have another father because he is the one. God gave him to us. And if he is here, he will not allow us to do bad things that can harm us. But sometimes I want blame him for what is happening to my eldest brother. According to my grandmother, my brother was being spoiled by my father. He always does and gives whatever my brother wants. Now, even though my brother is in college level. He neither stopped nor reduced his love for playing toys. My aunt said, we cannot blame my brother because when my father died, my brother was the one to absorb the shock. And that is always comes to my mind whenever my brother is being childish.

          It is hard for me to lose my father at the very young age. Sometimes, I am searching for the love of a father. But the life must go on. You cannot continue your life when you are always thinking of what happened in your past. But it does not mean that I will forget my father. He will always remain to my heart even though he is already with the creator, God. 

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